When you look with your eyes everything seems nice

no..i've decided that i dont care about getting old...i just hate birthdays bc it's suppose to be special..and it always sucks..for the last 17 years of my life..the last great birthday was when i had taht possessed barbie cake from back in the day..oh there was that one with lexie and melissa and we destroyed my room..hahah! by besides for those special times..they've sucked hardcore...i think i've cried during some part of teh day...blah..yesterday was no exception..the greatest part was going to wet n wild w/ steve, joi, and jon..dinner was ok but i was just in a mood..and the mood continued into going out. Thanks Tana for being there for me and going out w/ me even tho you hate cowboys..it meant alot for you to not be mad at me. the talk w/ tana and jon at 2am was good...so i let one thing get me down i guess....sucky for me..i hope tonight is better and that i get out of this mood...fuck it ain't no body gonna hold me down..oh no i've got to keep on moving...yea..ok i'm done

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And that all that I've got